12 8 11 just another day?

so today is my birthday and now i am 19 and well, it feels surreal. since  now just 1 year till im out of my teens. but im not gonna be like "oh i learned so much in a year and im so much more stronger now or wiser now."
No bulls*** i'm the same kid i was yesterday but now i am really expected to have my shit together and well i dont haha
im only human and i will try my hardest to be a better stronger person now but really only time well tell so im not gonna spit shit that im amazing
im just a kid and i'm okay with that

o.o

so these blogs are to talk and just vent how i felt or whatever is on my mind
so lets try to get into something
now what i am gonna put on here sooner or later:
my thoughts on games (maybe)
how i feel on life
whats on my mind
and stories from personal expressions
and stories i made that up i shall tell you when they are real or not and im pretty sure you can tell
but if your unclear then just comment and i'll get to you and if you like the story i will tell you more or if i made it up what went into my mind while making it and continuing them

but i will add more as soon as i can or i can think of awesome stuff to share with you guys
remember guys to leave me feed back and say what i missed or whatever, yes im new to this hole blog thing but im willing to leave more guys
take care

--- Alex

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so i've been arguing with my self to see if i was gonna post something again.
and i gave in so here i am now
ive been seeing how your "friends" so quickly forget about you, its weird cause when you see me randomly your all happy to see me why dont you make an effort to hang out?
you have my # facebook and know where i live so why is it so hard to try if your so "happy" to see me?
its weird, and no im not just complain about it
its just odd to me, since a true friend trys to hang out a true friend wants to see you and a true friend will be there so i find it all dumb that you call me friend
sure i don't like a lot pf people, but your my friend we hung out before why is it so hard now?
high school is over and (for me) and so are most of my so called friends
its something you jest expect to happen
if any of you are still in high school
dont take it so seriously do your best and try not to worry so much
enjoy your time and make some real friend and remember that
if they arent trying to be friends why should you

---- Alex

who needs a title

You know i felt like i should express what is on my mind. It can range from politics to video games, Who will listen?  I'm hoping at least 1 person and if you are that 1 person then thanks.
but i'm not the social butterfly or the Emo crying about how its hard to live in a 2 story house and have parents who love me im only bitching and moaning cause i feel like I'm not getting enough attention.
No I'm the person who is just trying to live, and make something out of myself.
So maybe this won't get read a lot or seen at all i don't know but lets get started.
1st off I'm a dude 18 yrs old. (btw its old not young I've heard people say " I'm 18 yrs young" you sound like a retard when you say that get over it we all die suck it up and do something useful.)
Any who  i thought I'd ramble on and just talk about something.
fuck i dont know what to talk about this worked out better in my mind. -_-
why does it seem like everyone trying to be the same?
i dont see what being a robot is so fun I'd rather be me a person with my own ideas and morals but a copy of what is "cool" or "normal". on that subject what is normal?
just a word that changes with each person so we can't be "normal"
but we try to be the same as celebrities, rappers , and "be cool"
and im not saying everyone who likes rap is like this but most that i have seen.
try to be "gangster" or 'gangsta" you just look stupid g unit dont try to rock what your not
i hate what has happen to music im not a fan of rap and i know what your think " gasps" but i like music that isn't all about drugs bitches and money.
but that's just me guys
but yeah thats all i got for now